surviving

it really really hurts.

thoughtsthoughtsthoughts

so many things on my mind right now:

celebrity chef

i volunteered for this fuction where this famous chef is going to come to cook! its quite cool and i thought i would want to help out cause you get your picture taken with the chef!! anyway... its tonight and i'm quite excited... :) need to iron yet another shirt. i have this huge pile of washed unironed shirts and everytime i need a new shirt, people can see me sprinting to the ironing boards in a tshirt and fbts with a shirt in hand....

césar ritz

an exchange program for one term in switzerland. i so want to escape manly so i'm quite set on doing that... BUT the same term in icms is the coolest term ever. you get to organise your own event. HOW COOL IS THAT?! sigh... have to choose... the celebrity chef above is an example of the student's event.

what to do with birthday money

me mum decided to give me money this year for my birthday. i have no idea what to do with it cause:
dress: i'll wear it a few times only
skinny jeans: must be perfect fit and i'm too lazy to hunt
shoes: i'm moving around quite abit so... not good to pack.
books: ditto

sofitel interview

sofitel in melbourne's supposed to give me a call for an interview cause icms sent my resume to them last wednesday... SIGHSIGHSIGH. i'm getting worried cause they haven't called me. and i've checked my voicemail like 183649 times.

my ever so messy room

the cluttering of my room reflects the state of my mind in turmoil.
...
nah, i'm just too lazy to clear it.

:D

18 & 1

for i am 18 and we are 1

melbourne ♥
:) went to melbourne for the weekend to celebrate my 18th properly and i'm so glad i did.

thank you albert house peeps for being there...
i celebrated my 17th with you guys and my 18th and i really really hope i will get to celebrate many many more birthdays with you :)

went to accelerated maths 2 lecture with ruann, linyeh, ryan, bill, junkit. the lecurer was damn funny.

*ringtone loudly blares in the middle of lecture*

guy with loud phone: sorry
lecturer *smiling*: its ok. i'm not angry or upset. but if it happens again,
i might have to kill you


friday was bill's suprise for me. he kind of forced me into a wearing a dress and refused to tell me where we were going. and we were walking to brunetti's(the one not along lygon st.) to scout for chen's cake. and we saw this ginormous crowd near regent theatre where wicked was showing. then i remembered that there was the wicked lucky draw so we went to see if the lucky draw was still on cause you get front row seats if you win it. turned out we didn't need it cause bill's suprise for me was:

wicked tickets! fourth row :)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

it was really really really good. hahaha. they had really cool neon martini glasses that lighted up. i wanted one but bill used the excuse of 'no money' since the seats weren't too cheap...

saturday night was steamboat/me&chen's birthday celebration

i, being the best youngest sister chen could possibly ever have, lovingly made a vegemite(chen's fav. food) cake for him. with whipped cream, crumpets and chocolate: [it was disgusting]

chen's cake and my cake [his real cake came out later]

anyway, we ate a lot of food and watched public enemies

IT WAS BAD.[public enemies. not the food. melissa is never wrong with the food]

but overall i was a happy person

also went on a tour of carlton breweries and tasted beer.

list of melbourne food i ate

pei tan chok [century egg congee] supper inn-open till 2.30 am
salmon onigiri- union house melbourne uni
beef and mushroom rice noodles- saigon noodle melb uni
spring rolls+chargrilled chicken with broken rice- mekong ♥
baked eggs with bacon and mushroom- animal orchestra
steamboat buffet+birthday brunetti's blackforest cake- 老干妈
seafood buffet- margo's, crown
variety of stuff- noturno's
chicken rice- coconut house
peach sago- dessert house[they ran out of mango sago]
french toast- made by me!

sigh. disorganised post but here's a last photo:

:D

: )

i'm nearly 18!!! whoohoo. just a few more hours. :)

anyway, i just read this:

basically, a little girl has been diagnosed with cancer and she needs to go to new york for treatment. but its really expensive so she needs all the help she can get.

as most of you know, the battle against cancer is something quite close to my heart so please donate.. :) details can be found here. every single donation counts and i can tell you, every person who had helped my family through the difficult times, i appreciate them, truly.

so... please help

last few days of irresponsibleness

i'm still 17...
my last few days of being underage and being the youngest
i'm looking forward to growing up :)

met up with sean, watched bruno[SO NOT WORTH WATCHING]

saw kristy.
the first thing she said was OMG YOU'RE STILL THE SAME SIZE!
cue the -.- face.
anyway, we spent the day talking about the randomest things.

it was nice.

living

i feel like i'm living in the past
like all i have is memories.
and nothing else

since when did it get so hard to live?

3 sisters

the 3 Ms:

me, maddy and marianne

i wonder how tall maddy will get.
i hope marianne doesn't get taller than me

i don't think anyone can guess that i'm the oldest then.

my grace is sufficient

into your hands, i commit again
with all i am, for you Lord
you hold my world in the palm of your hand

i really really thank god for looking after me this term

at the start of this term i resolved to go to church regularly. and i went for 2 weeks then i had stuff and school cropping up. but i still talked to Him regularly and basically, i decided i would commit myself into his hands again.

and He timed everything so nicely. like i decided i would look for a job and he gave me a nice one that fit into my timetable and didn't cut into my weekends [my friend couldn't find a job]. and after i got settled into my job, the derks came to sydney, [quite fun, hanging around them made me feel so much better] and then now, joanna's coming for the hillsong conference.

there's a lot of stuff that He managed to fit in for me nicely also but that's a very very long detailed story.

and i'm getting used to this place. somehow making it all work.

fanfics

Draco Malfoy speaking to Jason, a fanfic character who's interested in Ginny:

"Not at all," Draco enthused, in a jaunty voice. He patted Jason lightly on the shoulder, as he nudged him towards the fireplace. "Just checking to see if you understood what Harry Potter is capable of, is all. Horribly boring individual. Terrible conversationalist. S’got the personality of a door stop, really. But when it comes to aggressive magic, Jason," Draco paused, "there isn't another human on the planet to match him."

ahaha. i love fanfiction.net

life

when i went back to sg and entered my bedroom, i rembered what i had taped to my desk. written on the maskin tape was:

'laugh a lot , love all, live to the fullest, dream big, work hard, play harder'

i wrote that before going off to trinity.
to remind myself that these things in life are the things worth living for.
that life is not just about studying.
there's so much more to do

at the end of my life. i want to be able to tell God

"i managed to laugh, work, love, play, dream and best of all, i lived the life you gave me to the fullest"

i want to have no regrets.
so perhaps
i should be unafraid
as i was before.