28 December 2008

i should

i should be disciplined

i) blog
ii) clean up my room
iii) tidy my wadrobe
iv) finish my christmas+new year cards

SIGH.

looking back, i think i made the right decision.

26 December 2008

christmas

melissa wishes you a good christmas feast with no consequence in indulging a little too much.
have a blessed ch
ristmas!!!

23 December 2008

love

i was surfing the web [the wonders of unlimited mbs!] when i came across this stardust quote from the movie:

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

18 December 2008

random

got stabbed by liwen to do this:

STABS
1. Chan Yi Wen
2. Melissa Lim - Albertie
3. Amelia Cheah
4. Kimberley Tan
5. [can't think of anyone who actually reads my blog, if you actually read it, its you. Btw, thanks. HAHA]

rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now. badly :( the albertians
I dont watch TV these days. unless you count 1 hour of 9pm chinese show
I own lots of books. i still don't have enough for my liking but yes, it has been said that i do.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. contacts. ortho-k. pain in the arse. but i'm vain
I love to play video games. merely watching halo gives me a headache
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. [HAHA]
I believe honesty is usually the best policy. yup
I curse sometimes. WHAT?
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. yup more tolerant.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. you have to be nuts.
I'm TOTALLY smart. yes, i'm melissa the genius. like alexander the great.
I've broken someone's bones. nope. but i've made my sister bleed before. don't provoke me
I'm paranoid sometimes. used to constantly check if someone was following me on the way home
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. who doesn't want to improve their looks??
I need money right now. so that my posb account wouldn't be depleting like water in a fish tank with a gaping hole.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast. sometimes
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas. my god. but you really get fun out of it.
I have at least one sibling. do they have something that indicates you wish it weren't true? actually, they're ok i suppose.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D and now my effing handphone doesn't!!!!
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic. nope. deep down inside i hope for the best
I have a lot of mood swings. again, something i wish weren't true
I have a hidden talent. oh man. i wish i had.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have
I have a lot of friends. ok number, i won't say alot.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex. hey. my mum ok? and my sisters.
I enjoy talking on the phone. best invention. besides computers
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. for me, you have to love then hate.
I'm a pretty good dancer. nope. sadly. mediocre
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. haha. not really. a lot of people have said that my mum looks good for her age.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis. NO CABLE
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. nope. i'm a saint who doesn't touch alcohol
I've rejected someone before. rejected being? if its a date then yes. if its to enter a relationship, no.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything. homework. dangit. what do you mean it doesn't count?
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. friends before bfs for me.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends. or at least i'd like to think i'm that noble
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. eww. have you tried toto's or universal? both pwn you pizza hut!
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. nope.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time. puh-lease. do you know me?
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. hmm. nope. sadly.
I can work on a car.
I love my job. slacking is nice.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs. my gosh. can anything be more boring?
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state. OUT OF COUNTRY man.
I like sausage. swiss butchery is the best!
I love kisses. :D
I fall for the worst people. hmm. once i did. this year. thank god i got out of it. other than that, nope.
I adore bright colours. cheerful
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals. ?
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. HAHA i can i can i can!
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. sadly nope.
I have ridden/owned a horse. ridden. can you imagine where i can fit a horse into my house in singapore???
I still have every journal I've ever written in. rarely
I can't stick to a diet. i just love food too much
I talk in my sleep. nope
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. -sometimes.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood. haha.i wish
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with. god, help me
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions. hmmm. nope
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better. yup
I'm an artist. that would be my sister
I only clean my room when necessary. yup. :D
I like a person of the same sex. friends kinda thing?
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie GOD NO.

ahem. hmmm
i want whoever reads this to do it!

13 December 2008

home

i'm home! since 7th dec

anyway, went out quite a bit, rested nicely too.

i don't think anyone would care if i didn't update. except you?
haha.

anyway, will do so when i have the energy or time

loves! :)

06 December 2008

nothing remains

when my lit teacher pointed out that nothing remains was an oxymoron, i couldn't understand why. i understood that nothing can't remain, cause it was nothing. but i didn't get why it was such a significant one

now i do.

as i walk through the halls of albert house, nothing remains.
i see boxes ready to be packed off. yet they are a reminder that there is nothing left.
i see matresses without their sheets. they are nothing
i see desks cleaned out. they are nothing without the photos and stationery on them.
i see a building with nothing.

its a mere shell

its a colossal wreck to me
nothing remains

packing

each rip of duct tape i hear reminds me that everyone is packing their year and i'm never going to see them this way again.
not this close
not this bonded
not this carefree.

i love you all.
thanks for the laughter, smiles, hoi ideas, alcohol, pain. all of the memories we shared