i should

i should be disciplined

i) blog
ii) clean up my room
iii) tidy my wadrobe
iv) finish my christmas+new year cards

SIGH.

looking back, i think i made the right decision.

christmas

melissa wishes you a good christmas feast with no consequence in indulging a little too much.
have a blessed christmas!!!

love

i was surfing the web [the wonders of unlimited mbs!] when i came across this stardust quote from the movie:

Yvaine: You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

random

got stabbed by liwen to do this:

STABS
1. Chan Yi Wen
2. Melissa Lim - Albertie
3. Amelia Cheah
4. Kimberley Tan
5. [can't think of anyone who actually reads my blog, if you actually read it, its you. Btw, thanks. HAHA]

rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now. badly :( the albertians
I dont watch TV these days. unless you count 1 hour of 9pm chinese show
I own lots of books. i still don't have enough for my liking but yes, it has been said that i do.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. contacts. ortho-k. pain in the arse. but i'm vain
I love to play video games. merely watching halo gives me a headache
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. [HAHA]
I believe honesty is usually the best policy. yup
I curse sometimes. WHAT?
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. yup more tolerant.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. you have to be nuts.
I'm TOTALLY smart. yes, i'm melissa the genius. like alexander the great.
I've broken someone's bones. nope. but i've made my sister bleed before. don't provoke me
I'm paranoid sometimes. used to constantly check if someone was following me on the way home
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. who doesn't want to improve their looks??
I need money right now. so that my posb account wouldn't be depleting like water in a fish tank with a gaping hole.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast. sometimes
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas. my god. but you really get fun out of it.
I have at least one sibling. do they have something that indicates you wish it weren't true? actually, they're ok i suppose.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D and now my effing handphone doesn't!!!!
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic. nope. deep down inside i hope for the best
I have a lot of mood swings. again, something i wish weren't true
I have a hidden talent. oh man. i wish i had.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have
I have a lot of friends. ok number, i won't say alot.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex. hey. my mum ok? and my sisters.
I enjoy talking on the phone. best invention. besides computers
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. for me, you have to love then hate.
I'm a pretty good dancer. nope. sadly. mediocre
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. haha. not really. a lot of people have said that my mum looks good for her age.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis. NO CABLE
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. nope. i'm a saint who doesn't touch alcohol
I've rejected someone before. rejected being? if its a date then yes. if its to enter a relationship, no.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything. homework. dangit. what do you mean it doesn't count?
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. friends before bfs for me.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends. or at least i'd like to think i'm that noble
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. eww. have you tried toto's or universal? both pwn you pizza hut!
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. nope.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time. puh-lease. do you know me?
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. hmm. nope. sadly.
I can work on a car.
I love my job. slacking is nice.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs. my gosh. can anything be more boring?
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state. OUT OF COUNTRY man.
I like sausage. swiss butchery is the best!
I love kisses. :D
I fall for the worst people. hmm. once i did. this year. thank god i got out of it. other than that, nope.
I adore bright colours. cheerful
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals. ?
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. HAHA i can i can i can!
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. sadly nope.
I have ridden/owned a horse. ridden. can you imagine where i can fit a horse into my house in singapore???
I still have every journal I've ever written in. rarely
I can't stick to a diet. i just love food too much
I talk in my sleep. nope
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. -sometimes.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood. haha.i wish
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with. god, help me
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions. hmmm. nope
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better. yup
I'm an artist. that would be my sister
I only clean my room when necessary. yup. :D
I like a person of the same sex. friends kinda thing?
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie GOD NO.

ahem. hmmm
i want whoever reads this to do it!

home

i'm home! since 7th dec

anyway, went out quite a bit, rested nicely too.

i don't think anyone would care if i didn't update. except you?
haha.

anyway, will do so when i have the energy or time

loves! :)

nothing remains

when my lit teacher pointed out that nothing remains was an oxymoron, i couldn't understand why. i understood that nothing can't remain, cause it was nothing. but i didn't get why it was such a significant one

now i do.

as i walk through the halls of albert house, nothing remains.
i see boxes ready to be packed off. yet they are a reminder that there is nothing left.
i see matresses without their sheets. they are nothing
i see desks cleaned out. they are nothing without the photos and stationery on them.
i see a building with nothing.

its a mere shell

its a colossal wreck to me
nothing remains

packing

each rip of duct tape i hear reminds me that everyone is packing their year and i'm never going to see them this way again.
not this close
not this bonded
not this carefree.

i love you all.
thanks for the laughter, smiles, hoi ideas, alcohol, pain. all of the memories we shared

make a guess

its not what you say that matters, its what you don't say that leaves me crying.
3 words, 8 syllables, say it and i'm yours

both are true

so what's the situation?

in the midst of a short hiatus...

YAY.
my mbs are back.
:)

exams going on now. so i will pray hard and study not-so-hard
heheh.

will update soon

thoughts

on one level: so much for a happy ending.
on another level: its not what you say. its what you don't say that really hurts

its odd isn't it? this thing we call life.
its a game, its some form of torture
its almost as though
someone want to see us suffer
and although there's always a silver lining,
sometimes it goes into hiding.
and when all seems somewhat normal at last,
trouble happens again, all too fast.

drama performances

oh my gosh.

today was good.
i saw lin yeh turn totally bimbo and gay, wen being old, kye ling turn into a smart professor and bill being a horny nerd who got slapped 4 times in the span of 8 mins. HAHA.

yup yup. drama yet again. performances were yesterday, today and tomorrow.

mine's tomorrow. and i'm slightly dreading it.
may i not be nervous.

to the albertians

memories. i'd better stock up on them now
'cause they will be all i have, soon
i'll preserve of the images of you and take it with me

every moment. with all of you. it will be treasured.

i'll miss laughing, scolding, making crap up, eating, talking, walking, debating, or even sitting in silence with you lot.

money may make the world go round but every single crazy last one of you all make the ride enjoyable.

yet another song

Sorting out my music library when i came across this song. Cherm discovered it in her itunes library and we all agreed it was heart-melting, uber sweet.

anyway, its called beautiful, by jim brickman. its a disney song! the short clip is here. if you want the full version, go and download it illegally yourself buy it.

From the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes
there was something about you
I knew I knew
that you were once in a life time
a treasure near impossible to find
and I know how lucky I am to have you

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Holding you in my arms
no one else has fit so perfectly
I could dance forever with you, with you
and at the stroke of midnight
please forgive me if I can't let go
cause I never dreamed I'd find a Cinderella of my own

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

from the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes...

amanda's post

windows media player is currently belting out celine dion's my heart will go on.
i secretly like that cheesy song do not know why i have the titanic soundtrack.
anyway, made me reflect, yet again.

the year's coming to an end.

2008 has been one of the best years of my life.
i think i've grown a lot more.

i found amanda's resurected blog and this was her post which expressed really everything i felt(minus the planetshakers bit)

one of the better posts i have read:

i think the earth is revolving way too fast
everything's like *whack* *whack *whack*
and it's term 4 already

ohmygosh
i dont know what i should be feeling

im quite excited
because i am going home in about a month
and it will be sunny singapore for 2 whole months
im happy because i can be with my family
plus visit the familiar places again
& of course eat proper food that i miss so much!
im also glad that i can finally see my friends again
but im kinda afraid of that fact too
i wonder if everything was like before i left
i wonder if they'll still be the same
i hope nothing much had changed
i hope i will not feel too awkward
im kinda scared, you know :(

but on the other hand,
im really really really upset
i dont want to leave Australia
i dont want to leave this crazy place i came to know
and lived for for 10 whole months
it really amazes me
how i gained so much within this short period of time
and how there were so many opportunities to grow and know more abt myself
how in like the next moment
i can be given the opportunity to perform infront of 10 000 ppl
best of all, beside PCK and crew
i think it was the best 10 months of my life ever
i never imagined coming to this alien place by myself
doing my own laundry, getting the groceries, managing my money
besides that, i got to experience so much too
true joy, love, hurt, sadness, anger..

i dont want all these to end

i know im coming back nxt yr and all
but it's gonna be different
its just not trinity college, albert house and planetshakers anymore
its just not the same
i cant believe 2008 passed just like that
it feels like a great big dream

i really want to thank australia

thank you for blessing me with such great ppl in the hostel
especially the fruits! you know who you are :D
thank you for all the crazy fun times tgt
thank you for being yourselves
thank you for always being there
thank you for the late night outs
& i know i cannot thank you enough
to show my gratitude and love! really
I LOVE YOU! every stupid single one of you
i will never ever forget
promise me all 60 of us will meet up again ok :)

thank you for school
im sorry but i just have to say it rocks so much more than jc
because we have subjects like drama, lit and hoi
(i actually enjoy hamlet and nationalism ok! ok ignore me)
and they are nothing like GP (haha!) im sorry :P

this week's our last wk of school
and today we had our last drama class
and we were all being so emo. it made danny sad too
im gonna miss you danny
and every single one of you teachers
& school mates too! you guys are lovely ppl

thank you trinity
for giving me so many opportunities to express myself
thank you for giving me the opportunity to sing in front of everybody on stage twice
it was really a great milestone for me & i couldnt have wished for more
because in spore everyone seems to be saying the glass was breaking (HAH)
i really enjoyed them all

thank you planet shakers!
thank you for GREAT pastors (ie ps russell, sam and matt!)
& of course, my darling urbs
you guys were always smiley and happy xD
our cell grp's like the bomb!
i hope you guys forgive me for not always turning up k
so sorry
but you know, you all are always in my heart
and i know that i am always in your prayers
although nxt yr i may not go back there
I WILL MISS YOU ALL OK!
you, you, you & you

im actually crying thru the post
hey all these are sincerely from the deepest downest part of my heart ok!
:)

i want to start all over again
at the beginning
where it was like oh hi! i am amanda from singapore
oh wow, you are from _____
so what's your name?
oh that's a nice name!
(well maybe not the last part but, yah u get me right ;D)

but i know
its just not possible
i guess i just got to trust
trust in whatever the Lord has in store for me nxt yr
and continue believing that He will continue to bless me
after seeing how 2008 filled the first big phase of my life
im confident about how the nxt few yrs wil pass
& continue to impact me, shape me & amaze me
bit by bit.. one step at a time.

free stuff

of cheap thrills and freebies

today is 7/11,

which means its 7 eleven day!
and they were giving out free slurpees! :)

i'm currently wearing my free sg day shirt which says majulah singapura
i think its quite cool.

last thursday, melbourne uni engineering faculty was having an exhibition and they were giving out free krispy kremes.

hugs and kisses are free too!

and so is oxygen and laughter.

i have thus come to the conclusion that the best things in life are free. :)

dilemma

i got accepted in maquarie for hospitality. in sydney.
while i really want to do hospitality,
i'm in a
dilemma: \də-ˈle-mə also dī-\ noun
a problem offering at least two solutions or possiblities of which none are practically acceptable
1. a usually undesirable or unpleasant choice
2. a situation involving such a choice
3. a problem involving a difficult choice

i'm so tired. of leaving everything behind.
first was to come to melbourne.
left behind friends that i had known for 10 years.
left behind routines that i had
left behind family
left my comfort zone

now its to leave melbourne
leaving behind albertians
leaving behind trinity peeps
leaving behind you.

prom II

i did it.
there's no turning back now.
its gone forever.
all it took was one step.
so easy.
i lost my virginity.
my club one, that is.

anyway, felt like being lame.. so the after party was at a club called seven and it was my first time going clubbing. kendrick got a table cause he ordered 2 bottles of liquor. it was quite fun, dancing and losing yourself in the loud loud music. (it reminded me why i love dance. and i miss ballet. cause you forget everything. all you can hear is the music and you don't have to think. your body takes over. for once, the mind is at rest.)
it was safe, going with all the albertians and it was fun.

oh yeah, if you're wondering how i managed to get in since i'm only 17, i borrowed leanne's ID. i don't think i look like her but jia yang insisted that i did with my makeup on. so i was like so you're saying that leanne's prettier than me. then jia yang saved himself by pointing out that leanne usually wears makeup so he was referring to when both of us had make up on. haha thanks for trying to make me feel better!
they ended up not checking ID since we were in a big group.

i think it was a nice experience but i don't think i'll be addicted to clubbing or anything.

please don't stop the music

prom I

Halloween was well spent for me, cause i had my PROM.

31st October was eventful. i went for lectures in the morning as usual with the econs lecturer giving us notes on what would come out for the exam. At 3, with all the exam stuff promptly forgotten, me, amanda, krystle, tiffy, liwen and amanda left for the basement of Myers[equivalent of taka]. Me and krystle discovered that the bloom [click for link] cosmetic counter at Myers was doing free make up for some promotion thing. Being chinese, we happily took advantage of it and booked it for us and the rest. joyce joined us later. I LOVE MY MAKEUP ARTIST. she only did mine since she went home after she did me but i liked her cause she was really good and friendly. Me, being a noob at this sort of a thing, had no clue, just told her i wanted light make up and that my dress was grey and she immediately started whipping out stuff and asked me to choose between 2 shades of grey for eyeshadow. As she was doing my face i asked her about stuff in general. She wants to be a makeup artist for models and she told me she prefered doing asian faces. i never heard that before. like choosing asian over caucasian. anyway, her name's steph and i'm going to send her a thank you card. as you can tell, i really liked her work:

tiffy and me

we went back to albert house to do hair. i was intending to do a french plait at the side of my head but it became loose so last minute-ly, sam and esther came to the rescue and did my hair simply but nicely. corridor mate to the rescue! thank you so much sam. and thanks for lending me your earrings, esther. and so after all the mayhem and running around like a headless chicken, the cinderellas descended the stairs into the waiting room where their prince charmings were waiting.[read: pretty girls clopped down the crappy albert house stairs in precariously high heeled shoes invented by men who decided that destroying a women's foot would be a good idea because it made her butt look small where the guys in suits who-were-looking-better-than-usual-but-still-not-prince-quality were grumbling about how long the girls were taking at the dining area. The girls camwhored with glam dresses with a not-so-glam background of the albert house dining hall. eg.

see? 4 VERY pretty girls with 4 VERY pretty dresses and hair with flourescent lights behind. SIGH

anyway, the maxicabs arrived and we piled in and off we went. some random guy waved to us at the traffic light. i think he was quite amazed.

Grand Hyatt: Trinity College Foundational Studies Annual Ball 2008
Live from the red carpet!

that was our theme. kinda boring but oh well. the red carpet was fun to camwhore on.

3 course meal. prawns, chicken and chocolate tart. mixed opinions. i've heard it being described as 'f**king waste of money' to 'excellent' and 'worth it'. personally, i find it ok cause taking into consideration that $85 had to cover venue, deco and food, the food was not bad.

more photo taking and shameless camwhoring ensued. Bee bee won Miss trinity(have to be good in studies, pretty, charismatic, nice and talented) yay! and kendrick and melody got couple of the night. their prize was a giant teddy! it was this giant:

yes yes, i look demented. but that's because that hand there was trying to steal the teddy. i think the hand belongs to jian fei.

me with beebee, aka miss trinity.


couple of the night! why i'm in the middle calefare-ing, i do not know... so cute right the both of them? baby pink and baby blue.

anyway, we took a hell load of photos and after that, raced home in a cab to go for the after party. which should be saved for another blogpost

preparing for prom

friday's prom.

yup yup. so there will be a barrage of photos uploaded by trinity peeps on facebook... me, ahma, joyce, tiffy and a few others are diy-ing their hair and make up. quite cool. we were all squealing about the fact that hannah's room, which has now disappeared since uncle andrew removed the partition, had a nice dresser and we could do everything there. bill predicted that the guys would be done with their suits in like 15 mins and wait forever for the girls. eh. not easy to look nice and pretty in a dress ok? even i can pull off a suit. ( i want a blazer! damn cool. the 7 jam wanted to get for cny 2008. damn cool, all 7 of us walk into grand half aunt mary's house in matching suits and sunglasses. FULL BLACK. damn cool!!! of course our parents flipped at the idea)

i currently have nice pink nails, courtesy of krystle. and white and silver heels thanks to mian who lent it to me for prom.

yay. i'm a happy girl. :D

anyway, ah ma called me just as i walked into my room and she was super bored so she wanted to try curling hair. and we used hannah's room (albeit the lack of walls). joyce and melody joined us and we all had curly hair for awhile, compliments of professional stylist amanda yee using sarah's curler. mine started unravelling within the hour, it being very obedient. haha. all of us were like we'll study once prom is over!

derk hua got his suit today. not bad looking eh hua? good price too. oh. hoe is wearing his dreadful ah beng golden dragon tie and he looks like he belongs to some triad and bill is gelling his hair back into a ponytail so he looks like a yakuza member. as i've told some people, we have a convention of mafias at our table. XD

a few nice chats with old friends

just talked to teewhy. still the same, only a tad more vulgar, yes teewhy? haha. love you lots! i really miss you calling me bitch and all the crap nonsensing stuff that gb let us do. come to think of it, i've known teewhy since p2 and i'm so glad i have [although my impression of her when i was young was that naughty shamas girl]. gb's really shaped our lives and i wouldn't have it any other way. its really not just a cca, its a family that you grow up in, you have seniors to guide you when you're young and juniors to guide as you grow. its really sad that more and more people are quitting gb. and drill com is this saturday. GO SEAGULLS. i really want to see the squad on the challenge shield!

had a chat with suet also. we sat down near leeper library and i told her what had been happening with my life and she did too. apparently, i'm one of the few people that call her that since she goes by yeni now... used to be a bit problematic when i called her house since there was suet lin [occasionally] suet yen and suet yew:

"hello?"
"hi. is suet there?"
"er... which one?"

its nice to catch up. must call some others soon.

perd's birthday was today. and so the dota-ians threw eggs at him. and tomato ketchup.

not much has been happening recently.

food for thought: if you love, will you let go?

time

her face fell and she turned and walked away, each soft shuffle breaking my heart - the kitchen God's wife

i have 5 weeks left in trinity ... too short a time. seems like just yesterday that i came here.

sg day

where are you?
where is what i fell in love with? i'm still searching... & will be for a very long time.

singapore day was really cool. i'm so glad that we were volunteers. :D

i have yet to unpack my goodie bag but i'm pretty sure it contains at least $50 worth of stuff:

$10 singtel calling card
2 weeks free subscription to mobtv
bottles of satay sauce, mee goreng paste and... KAYA!
and lots of other stuffies

the food was free and therefore, the queue was very, VERY long. it reminded me that i did miss queuing... the satisfaction you get after a long wait. sigh...

fish and chips.

there have been a LOT of crazy stupid totally nothing better to do thingys that i've done. like debate with manda, melia and claire for 2 hours whether looking up at tall things in a circle makes you spin round or but today has to make the top 10 things list man. seriously.

it started when jian fei mentioned that his drama teacher, rosemary, got married at some fish and chip shop. we were like woah, the fish has to be good then, supposedly the best in melbourne[not the city but the entire melbourne melbourne]. so we hop onto the tram. and the train. and the bus. and the entire journey takes a frickin 3 hours! and that's one way. so i used 6 hours to travel that day

AND WE DIDN'T EVEN FIND THE EXACT SHOP.

we settled for some other fish and chippery which was not bad and the beach was nice, got alot of sea shells.

ryan, jian fei, bill and me were the only ones who managed to finish our fries. and then we discovered a way of utilising the remaining fries: feeding them to the numerous seagulls. BUT, not before using them for some sick psycho experiment which was as follows:

place 3 fries on the ground
BUT keep watch over it.
the second they come too close to the bait, use wen to imitate a large bird and scare them away.
repeat.

there was one seagull in particular that managed to get the fries. and an even smarter one that crept up from behind to steal the fries. i like that seagull. i fed it.

when we tired of that, entzer used the fries to build an army of seagull that followed him. and when we went near the sea, he had a navy. and an airforce.

not bad for $12.40

cell retreat

just came back from cell retreat.

I LOVE THE FOOD. :D but now its back to sucky albert house food...

anyway, we went to torquay [pronounced tor-KEE] via train and we stayed in a house 5 mins away from the beach. sun, sea, sand. it was also a house meant for 14 people but we crammed 20 people in there. shared 2 beds with ai ling & leanne. the house was quite nice and so was the beach. :D

friendship

in the past 2 days, i've learnt a lot about friendship.

and i've realised just how much a true friend is worth. and how difficult it is to find a soulmate and that i'm such a lucky person to have found 3 soulmates and several true friends.

lesson learnt: always let friendship take precedence over most things.

trials test. and i guess we failed this one.

its not the quantity of time that counts. its the quality. and i've found out that just because you've spent a lot of time with people, they automatically are your good friends, which i used to believe. i'm not saying this in bitterness or as a direct jab but as something that i've experienced for myself. thanks for at least, being friends, and having the courage to tell me what was wrong and for the good times we had. and i hope i have been a friend to you both and that we'll continue being friends?

i'm not an expert on friendship but this much i can assume:
true friends accept who you are and who you are becoming but they should have the courage to tell you if they don't think its good for you because they love you. nothing's hidden.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails

september

happy belated birthday to my dad.

and i have finished my mBs YET again. yup, finito, mei you le, no more, tah ada.

SIGH.

AND I HAVE HOLIDAYS!

maths

maths exam tomorrow. half the paper's on matrices.

i will not die.

ipod nano

ARGH lit essay.

dammit

anyway, happy birthday claire! you're ancient like me and melia now so accept the fact that you're a full 17 years antiqued. have fun doing PW on you're birthday mann!

oh and claire told me about the new ipod nano which i saw and totally fell in love with! GO SEE.

sg day

omg. i hope singapore day will not be like this:

straits times

$94 chicken rice?

LAKSA for the equivalent of $53, chicken rice for $94 and chilli crab for $144 - unimaginable prices for hawker food.

But Russian diners paid these exorbitant sums, in local roubles, to get a taste of some of Singapore's signature dishes at a food fair held in Moscow recently.

WOW.

happy 17th birthday jun kit! yi wen was so nice as to plan everything out for you... better thank her properly, and not just a kiss on the cheek this time!

september 11th

happy birthday to the derks!

yup. the twins are born on sept 11th so their cards were 2 skyscrapers. and we threw paper aeroplanes at them... heheh. so fun. quite a creative idea i think. and its definitely not being insensitive to the people who died in the 9/11 attack.

speaking of which, its been 7/8 years since the attack? and its only because its america that got attacked that the date september the 11th carries some sort of significance.
i mean, can anyone remember the date of the bali bombings???

movies

I HAVE FINISHED THE ENTIRE SEASON OF GOSSIP GIRL IN 3 DAYS.
if that sounds like an achievment to you, it is, considering the fact that i had school and an accounting essay due.

gossip girl's not bad. chuck is so irritating! to do: must learn how to be annoying while looking calm. blair's such a lovable bitch. reminds me a bit of wait. better not say it. otherwise a certain favourite bimbo of mine might not be too happy. all in all, gossip girl reminds me of mg and its been awhile since i've been in such a bitchy environment. albert house is a lot less judgmental i think.

watched DOA. i liked the last part when 5 girls are sitting there, at the jap girl's place and

naive girl: don't you think the guy in the second row's cute?
english girl: is there a guy in this world you don't have a crush on?
jap girl: you can have him. but what are we going to do about the other 300?
*scene of jap samurai army rushing to fight them*
american girl: why don't we just split them up evenly?

OOH singapore day is here in melbourne! food glorious food, what wouldn't i give? tadadumtadum. i MISS singapore food. i swear if i try to live in anywhere but singapore, please remind me of the FOOD and i'll stay. immediately.
ok nevermind. anyway, they're bringing in PCK too! :D

drama yay!

drama exam's over. phew. the applause we received was more than we hoped for. it went fairly well i think[only because i have a minor role in it otherwise it'll be majorly screwed]... dev badly wants to upload it on youtube but we all will kill him if he does

CHEERS to vices.[such a cheesy name] dev.handy.gwen.jass! you guys were great and made this exam tolerable. i had a lot of fun...

help help

bravery is not the absence of fear but doing what you have to do when you're bloody scared

its one more hour to meeting my drama group. ARGH

anyway, we watched kye ling's drama and missed derk wen's & bill's drama...
kye ling's really good at acting.

the past & present

i thank the past for the good times it has given me and the excellent memories it has given me. but at the same time, i want to live in it. don't get me wrong, i like my life now as it is. but at the same time, i'm missing everything that i've known for 17 years.

for ever and ever.
for it lives in my mind
for the crazy wild times
for the crappy sobbing times
for the blissfully happy times
for the hot humid i'm-sweating-like-a-pig times.
for the stability and rituals
for the unexpected obstacles life throw our way
for friendships made and pleasures shared and lessons learnt apace,

thank you God.

now is a gift, that's why they call it the present

watched cherm's drama, the guys in her group were acting out a fight and one of them slammed the other into the wall. AND THE WALL CRACKED. it was a really long crack...

spring is so nice to photograph... all the flowers coming up and although the trees look dead still, its nice to know they'll get their leaves back soon

eap & essays

there are approximately 750 000 words in the english language. Some words, like hierarchical, are difficult to pronounce but the hardest one to say is a simple 'sorry'

oh my gosh. a wiki page for eap actually exists... and we were all wondering who the heck came up with such a pompous stupid name for an equally stupid, condesending subject that assumes all foreign students speka no goot engrish.

still have 2 untouched essays: lit and accounting. drama performance is this friday. pray that i break a leg [literally or figuratively]

on a continous loop. school|food|sleep|school|food|sleep

ITS SPRING.

officially.
and it kinda feels like it... with it not being that cold anymore

i recieved marianne's postcard today, it was a free postage one since they advertise for you to come to singapore... its the most overdecorated thing i've ever seen with drawings, stickers and stuff. THANK YOU MEANNE. :D

problems and a bandotti

too difficult to care, yet too difficult to let go cause she still loves you

people have a lot of problems mann... i'm glad my life is relatively uncomplicated now and i have something to laugh about every day

anyway, called manda last night. she was still calling me a bandotti and a pishanaboo[which is just a made up word. its not tamil or whatever].

good luck for promos people! study hard ok???

yay

and i love you more than ever

GOT MY MBS BACK.

yay. except i spent 172 mb out of 700 mb already.
and that means i have 500 to last me through the rest of the month.

anyway, just got back from National Gallery of Victoria and they had the exhibtion on black stuff throughout the ages [from dresses to corsets to shawls], which was not the point of the hoi faculty taking us there but anyway, me and derk hua went to see that section after the hoi tour.

got my contact lenses!

one month passes by so quickly. :D

shopping <3

happy happy me, happy happy you. does anything else matter?

i'm taking derkhua's mbs to go spend... YAY

talking about spending, we went shopping today [me, cherm and kaii] :)
bought a hell lot of things. but most of them necessities... [or at least according to my judgement]
i haven't shopped since coming back to melbourne so don't judge...

movie: cassanova. not bad, quite funny in a witty way. waterhorse. typical nice ending sort of movie. 881. ok... touching i think. can't think of anything else that i watched recently.

i'm finished with hoi and psych essay, got lit and accounting left. RAWR. oh well. at least the worst is over. also i have:

eap debate- of which i'm opposition to the motion of gays should have equal rights and allowed to marry. not that i'm anti gay, its just that the pro-gay speakers parts were snapped up.

drama performance- of which i play a rich bimbo who the main guy tries to get money from...

to finish sorting out my life

i know you mean the best. but sometimes i'd rather you not care.

cleanliness and fire

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
& love doesn't expect anything in return

melissa's room is clean again. everyone was shocked at the transformation.

:D

so fun. wheee.

today there was a surprise fire drill during lit tut. so fun right? i mean trooping down outside to the cold blustering wind and shivering out there while we could have been slacking in the nice warm classroom cause THE TEACHER DID NOT COME.

and their fire drill is so lame. we moved at the speed of a glacier...

6.20 am

things i'm telling myself at 6.20 in the morning, halfway through an essay due in 2hours

1) Do NOT ever eat over your laptop. unless you want to invidually remove the keys to clean it.
2) Name your laptop, of the opposite sex. So that you can declare that you sleep with david every night for the fun of it. [kor named his alice. and daddy named his m-effer]
3) Buy indomie! [the best.]
4) Take free chopsticks and spoons whenever you can so that you don't have to wash your fork and spoon :D
5) Save your work![i know i should have learnt this long ago but yeah, i just lost 4 paras of my psych essay, which is the reason why i'm up. cause david decided to delete half of my work.
6) wake up early! its a nice feeling to be up again at 6. i miss it... been a long time since i considered getting up at 8 to be late. i still remember rushing for the school bus, pelting out of the house with my backpack unziped and one shoe and a sock on, clutching my p.e. attire in one hand and my breakfast in the other.
7) Do your essay!

as you can infer, i ate biscuits over david, had crumbs go in between the keys, took out the keys, felt hungry again, ate indomie using disposable utensils, all at 6 in the morning due to my uncompleted essay.

MY 100th blogpost! wow...

POOH!

iwishiwasn'tthatemotional&iwishididn'tcare.

OH. i received a very nice belated birthday present: a highly huggable stuffed pooh bear. :)

i love pooh! YAY! and the present was a total surprise, one of the few times i was truly really suprised by my present. cherm and kaii didn't say anything at all about it...

thank you :D totally made my day

again, the sad lack of bandwidth

laughing so hysterically. & it turned to wracking sobs.
funny how just a story can make you come completely undone

ihaverunoutofbandwidth

DAMMIT

i seem to be complaining about this far too often.

and yes, the time is correct, i'm awake at 6.15 in the morning. & HYPER!

hotels, chinese and my wish for the musketeers

for accounting we're supposed to write an essay on management of a business we want to set up.

my ambition for years has been to be a vet. until i realised that you need to study so damn long that you'll be middle aged before you can practice. but anyway, i'm studying commerce so that i can set up a hotel or work in one. i think people are really interesting so i don't mind seeing all sorts of people.

OH. i just had my first chinese song loaded into david *gasps*.HAHA. but yes i have. all those who know me back in singapore will know i'm totally anti chinese and that i failed chinese. heheh. but its a nice song and, yes, for all the skeptics, i do understand it.

reading claire's blog and she wrote a really good article on founders. and all of a sudden i'm missing singapore all over again. although i now have loved ones here and i feel contented here, i still miss home. MUSKETEERS: know that your other quarter is in melbourne and thinking of you and missing you very very much!

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

psych

I'M CHEONGING PSYCH.

anyone believe me?

haha. the due date's on monday.

friends

when given an ultimatum, which friend do you choose? the one that needs you more or the one you want to help more?

relationships are never easy. friends are difficult to maintain, bgrs are even difficult-er and a relationship with God is even more so.

if only.

life's a bitch cause if it were easy, it'll be a slut- a very true quote

God, help me, grant me wisdom and tact to do the right thing.

adrienne's birthday

some hearts just get lucky some times

adrienne's birthday today! went to universal for dinner and the alcoholics ordered a bottle of Baileys. It tasted like really creamy coffee, the liquor didn't really taste like it was there. went to san churros after that. krystle and entzer were freaking high... sugar rush. whoots! quite fun actually.

just another ordinary miracle today

national day

FOR anyone can catch your eye but it takes someone special to capture your ♥

we suprised jia yang by throwing him a party at mycube, the games cafe, booked the entire top floor and camwhored like mad.

today was national day and i watched the live broadcast on the internet. the celebrations are getting worse and worse... seriously, no wonder marianne said it sucked... i'm so glad the celebrations during year i went was ok. i remember sitting beside manda [i don't know how this happened since we were in different classes] and being really enthralled by everything.

olympics are here and its quite funny that they[some of the guys] proposed betting on the cyclists today...

birthday wishes

& she couldn't be happier, warm, safe and contented. lying there in his arms, his fingers linked with hers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOATPLUSGOAT!

jia yang! happy sexy 17th, may you continue being the funny, lovable person that you are and you HAVE to teach us how to do the M-legs[yours are the sexiest i know, even better than the show we watched!]! hope you liked your cake! loves!

oh. and BREAKING NEWS:

RU ANN SHOWED THE MIDDLE FINGER!

i kid you not... ru ann: welcome to the dark side! [the darkside's recruitment slogan: come to the dark side... we've got cookies. and whisky!]

its 080808 today and the olympics will start at 10 pm, melbourne time, we shall go watch at federation square! :)

psych

HAHA. people are so fun to experiment with...

you know the old trick of pointing at nothing in the sky and see if passerbys look up too? we did a variation of it in psych class: scream and duck.

we tried it out on 4 people. 2 kinda flinched and were a bit afraid i think.

new-ness

take a look at the ordinary. don't need to look for paradise

HAHA. i managed to kill someone!
YAY. oh dammit. the person's stilll alive.

oh well.
went to the mycube games cafe for cell supper[its like settlers cafe in s'pore, play board games and eat], had pumkin soup, not bad. cell's splitting permanently, just when i thought i could know them better.

talked to the new girl, kristy a bit. she's quite quick, she'll go far in life[i say this because she helped me attack wai hoe! verbally of course]...

its all too sweet to last.

its all too sweet to last.

i love saturdays. sleeping in :D

lazy lazy day. :D

forgive&forget?

for the wounds inflicted on our hearts make us who we are. and the scars are always there

recieved rachel's birthday card today :D thank you! i love me to you! and don't worry too much!

there's a lot of times when you should ask yourself wwjd in situations that you find difficult to be christlike. as God forgives, so must we... but it isn't easy. i hope that __ really learnt his lesson. i can forgive but i won't forget.

woohoo

the simple things in life. the small little pleasures

ah. bloghopping is so fun.

thanks to manda for the very nice card! it arrived today abd i read it at the lunch table and i was 3/4 laughing and 1/4 crying, minus the tears. i love you too! and thanks again my dear.

thanks to entzer and krystle for the box of chocolates! prettiness! <3! the card, however, is a totally different story... thanks to joyce for the sweet pair of earrings (a girl can never have too many! :D) and tiff for the really sweet thought of writing my name on her palm. thanks also to jo for the very rude card... and nice present :)

sigh. yet another quarrel. i doubt __ will come out alive out of this one. seriously, nearly the whole of albert house is against him... all i can say is that he has had this coming to him, it was just a matter of time.

courses

and so it begins.

whoots. my 2 full days are over. for me the weekend starts on wednesday nights.

but of course, the free time comes with the fact that my essays have to be written!

dammit. i don't want to do commerce anymore, there's more essays... :(

time for... list!

LIST OF POSSIBLE COURSES MELISSA CAN DO:

1) be a slacker! [erm i don't think this counts...]
2) commerce[essays... bane of my life.]
3) law[have to go monash for that.. hmm. as much as i love to argue, i don't think i'm suited for it]
4) arts[what can you do with a bachelor of arts?! teach? i want to be a gazillionaire!]
5) architecture[reminder to melissa: you failed your art. oh right....]
6) education[i don't mind... i love yelling at kids :D]
7) argiculture?

ooh.. interesting

i never dared hope, only allowing myself a passing thought.

happy birthday senior michelle!

hostel life is so interesting. i swear. ok. imagine this:
its like the most drama of all dramas,
played out 24/7 for a year
with 60 characters which means
60![go calculate it yourself] relationships, ranging from extreme loathing to best of friends...

if only there were CCTV cameras in everyone's room, so many more secrets would come spiling out...

17 years old.

i hope i don't repeat the same mistakes. i'm loving life now.

had quite a messy birthday celebration, with them blindfolding me and making me drink some weird coffee and getting whipped cream and wasabi on my face.

but all in all, it was fun. thanks albert house for the birthday cards!

they got winnie the pooh stuff for my present :D haha. i haven't grown up yet! despite being 17...

too tired to go for eap and psych. skipping it had a rather excellent outcome. :D

sunday

if it was so easy to control and give up, this world would be a very boring place..

just came back from dinner from the korean place which kc's farewell dinner was at. they really do miss the orders a lot... food's good though.

wanted to go ice skating but it's really ex. about AUD$13 in total... pfft. oh well.

good luck

a rush of regrets, just a little more effort than what was expected.

esther lee asked me over msn what judges looked out for in music drill. naturally, i nearly flipped because, why should she ask me that when national drill com is in a YEAR'S time?

turns out that there is to be music drill instead of the usual format & impromtu. and its in october.

SEAGULLS! know that although your senior is in australia and not with you physically, i will support you guys mentally and morally and everything else. you can do it!

omg, you guys are so dead....

seriously speaking, it'll be difficult for you lot. and i think we allowed you guys to slack a lot during practice but just don't be too sloppy and lenient and you'll pull it off, i hope.

:(

for it lives in my mind too

happy 121th founder's day to mg...

I MISSED IT.dammit.

for goodness sakes, everyone's personal message on msn is like: founder's :)

ARGH. but as some sort of condolence, claire's sending me a pic of my cert. not the school grad cert but the mg one... thanks claire.

*sniff*

anyway, li wen: hope you enjoyed your speech day!

date and age

what do i care about your opinion?

lemme see the longest possible length that a date can be written:

Thursday, the twenty-fourth of july, in the year of our Lord two thousand and eight Anno Domini.

yup. so that's the date for you. i'm going to be 17 in 4 days. i don't want to grow up so fast!! whines. and this is the first time i'm not celebrating it with at least one of the musketeers. and the first time i'm not celebrating it with family.

move along is playing on my player. time to emo... [side effect of listening to it too much when in the US with cousins]

movies

watched the dark knight. :) it was worth the 10 bucks mann...

my contact lense has managed to disappear. won't say anything about it except that i look toot in specs. and i have to wear specs from now on...

sleep is in order.

but before that, movie update: saw 4, scary movie 2&3, 21 and a lot of foreign thriller films that have horrible english subtitles.

things to do

learn to master emotions.
learn to enjoy the pain cause there's plenty of it in this world.

rawr.

list of things to do:

-HOI essay- haven't even picked the damn question
-accounting essay- haven't covered the topic yet
-psych essay- AHAH. at least i've picked my topic: asperger syndrome. and i've borrowed the books on it. all i have to do is write the essay. which seems to be the hardest thing to do really. ironic don't you think? i can[i think] talk the hind leg off a cat and can blog fairly consistently yet i'm too lazy to open a word.doc and type a few paragraphs.
-lit essay's coming soon.

I'M STILL UPSET I'M MISSING FOUNDER'S DAY. RAWR. :(

ya think life in aussie is easy mate?
i'm telling you, ITS NOT. and the freedom is a bloody illusion.

i should have applied for trinity college, cambridge instead. better still, NYU or cornell.
the further the better

:|

hatred will consume from the inside.
love takes up a lot of life.
and right now i have no more energy to face the world.

artermis

things became better than before. no tension, no awkwardness. just 2 friends having a good time.

my dad has decided to get books for me as a birthday present...

WHICH MEANS I WILL GET MY HANDS ON ARTY! yes, artermis fowl, you're mine! actually, he's holly's so, oh well. OH and [spoiler alert ahead] i heard that holly finally kisses arty. i am so artyholly pro mann. miranda just has to get in the way... i told xian this piece of news and all he did was to sigh. COME ON MAN...

an entirely random post

haha. i'm too short petite to change my own lightbulb!

at least i can laugh at myself ok?

results are mostly out. extreme as usual... accounting and econs were predictably the worst. i was moaning to kaii and cherm that i was going to go to poly next year when wai hoe decided that he couldn't make it into any course and said he would join me in poly. hah. poly will have 2 retards then.

cherm has decided to lose weight and therefore is doing situps on her bed as i type this... she's been going to the gym and eating healthily, i don't know how she's got such good self discipline.

ah well. more bad results tomorrow. shall wait and see.

and superhero movie is SO lame.

30 days to live

its so ironic, the confidant needs a confider. and sadly, the same confidant pushed the confider away when the confider helped.

one question that was recently posed to me:

what would you do if you had 30 days to live?

a month? is that all i get? sigh
well. first i would eat all the food on my list. :) what?! i live to eat.
see friends and cousins, laugh and reminisce with them for the last time
meanwhile, i'd live everyday like i'm living now. treasuring everything i have, each moment.

i think i have learnt to enjoy life's small little perfect moments, to the fullest.

one more recruit for the dark side

at the mac lab again... i'm adapting i guess.

anyway,

BIG NEWS:

I CONVERTED DEBBIE! she has finally turned to the dark side. holidays can really do wonders to people. i mean she used to cringe whenever me and amy gave her the V sign or the peace sign with the hand turned the other way, but today she gave it to amy and i!!! so debbie, welcome to the dark side... i wonder how long it'll take before ru ann says her first f-word, but i'm not working on her.

gloomy...

i'm in the dark.

there's not a ray of light

because my room lightbulb has blown. i have to change it, soon... i forgot i had my torchlight. and i had to borrow jasmine's to find mine because it was somewhere in the depths of my messy room.

getting back our exam marks this week, i suspect my marks will be dismal.

back in melbourne

albert house is noisy again!

& oh my gosh the guys all either cut/straightened their hair. they look weird. like little boys again. not much change for the girls' hairstyle...

dinner was so quiet last night cause most of them hadn't arrived yet. its SO weird for albert house to be quiet.

tomorrow school starts again. SIGH. i don't want to start school! WHINE

WHINE.

celebrating chen's birthday tonight although it was on the 11th. heheh, can't wait

the wonders of unlimited internet

i managed to watch prince caspian and kungfu panda online. yay. part of the yayness when you watch movies in the comfort of your bed, is that it is not only free, it is illegal! [and as cherm would say, cheap thrills]

my favourite part of prince caspian[it is one of the few movies that i think lived up to the standard of the book] is the when lucy gave aslan one last look, also the saddest and sweetest part of the movie. :) the song's also very nice.

for today, personal accomplishment: i managed to get rid of an anchor. so i can properly listen to the song without anything coming back.

manda, melia, claire

met up with manda, melia, claire on tuesday for dinner. As expected, amanda ang was late. because of council meeting. manda's still being her usual bandotti self, melia still relatively sane and sensible, claire still is a lunatic. safe to say, the four musketeers haven't changed, except to grow a bit crazier.

old friends are still the best
:)


to the four musketeers, may we never become boring and sane. see you people in december!

i realise

when i went to church on sunday, i realised i'm not as close to Him as i was last year and the years before that. i thought about it and calculated. mg had 1 hour of chapel a week plus morning devotions everyday, and there was gb, cell and church. in melbourne i only go for cell. that's quite a large drop in time spent with God. i was reading grace's blog and this is what she figured:

and the whole thing made me realise how much i've been taking such a simple thing such as chapel for granted.

In our whole lives in MG,
we've had close to 520ish chapels?
that's 520 mornings of worship and praise, opportunity to draw closer to God.
Not including the daily morning devotions, special chapels, personal worship sessions.
That's a whole lot of time put aside for God,
maybe that's why he seemed so much closer before.

half a year

where did half a year go?

alot of things happened. i found a family[albeit dysfuctional], birthdays were celebrated, seasons passed, essays were churned out, memories were made. photos will tell you a bit of my life thus far... [in reverse chronological order]

for friendships made and pleasure shared and lessons learnt apace -MGS school song, verse 2

grace's 18th, each of us holding a candle

lockout! haha. note my name is second

sleeping in math lecture. illustrations on the lecture pad are courtesy of joyce ho.

leaves have fallen off now...

kc's farewell

my now-filled room

xian's 18th. the wrapped present is a magazine of dubious nature

steaming night- said goodbye to jun beng and ming zid

watched sweeney todd, performed by uni students

kaii having her noodles in a takeaway box[like the ones in dramas]

our discovery that jelly contains seaweed

kaii at the park

bill's birthday. note the shortness of hair

all of us at moomba

trinity, when the tree still had leaves

cherm's 17th birthday

when david was still nice and clean

chermaine with her just begun cross stich then

my very bare room on the first day.

7jam

the 7jam are at 118a hillcrest road now... PLAYING WITH THE WII.

and licka just about pwns everyone at tennis. SIGH

nevermind, what i lack in skill, i make up for in intelligence :) i don't think i'm smart. i know it.

got songs from maddy, 2 that i find hilarious. i am cow and PM Lee's speech remix. whoever did the remix is super brave. and sick minded.

anyway, 7jam [or rather 6am since rachel isn't here] is having a tennis match, elimination style. i think i will get out in the first round.

my holidays thus far

meeting old friends is supposed to be nice and good.

for most, all except one actually, it was really good to see them again

i shall not think about that one meeting and describe the rest.

thursday:
buy toiletries with mum
eat yong tau foo at people's park [yay]
meet kit yeng at kap[it was really good to see you again! haha. nice date you have for yourself there! keep in touch yeah?]

friday:
see optician [eye drops for dry eyes]
meet shri at guthrie house, coffee bean [hey shri. you still haven't changed in the slightest bit! don't worry so much about everything and remember that friends will always like you for being you]

saturday:
meet kaii and cherm at taka[kaii you late ass]
bump into jiayang at taka[GOATPLUSGOAT! WHY ON EARTH DID YOU STRAIGHTEN YOUR HAIR?! i didn't recognise him at first. cherm spotted him. and another thing, i never realised that jiayang was that tall.]
-unpleasant incident-
meet marianne at junction 8 for dinner
go for maddy's guitar concert[madeline lim cheng geok, you'd better appreciate the flowers]
supper at macdonald's [fries+ice cream= yum :)]

sunday:
lunch with family
get hard drive and stuff
dinner with dad's side of family

holidays are supposed to be time to recuperate. as you can see, my holidays are so not fufiling that purpose.

nothing to do

i could get used to this lifestyle.

which is currently going out, shopping and basically spending my parents money.

no wonder so many people don't want to get married and move out of their parent's home despite being 30 something...

too many changes

today was an eventful day.

went to visit my grandma. she's still cool, telling me to get a chinese boyfriend[i assured her i would] and still looks the same.

went to collect my school grad cert from mg, i work so hard[ok, not that hard] for 4 years and all i get are 8 pieces of paper?! and 2 are blank! sigh mann

anyway, stayed on for gb. what can i say? standard of drill's dropping, discipline's getting slacker and the numbers are fewer AND the new principal's scrapping the parade for founders day [?!] yes. no marchpast no colours party and not even a GOH. but i still love you my juniors![teng, les, cassie, jie, yuenie, angie, grace, bina, phoebe, esther etc.]

OH and when i was waiting for teng, leaning against the doorframe of her classroom, i heard 2 girls talking to each other in chinese! my gosh! what is mg coming to mann? CHINESE?!

which reminds me, grace told me that the level of prettiness is dropping like hell. as the levels go by. you know why? its because they're raising the cut off point for the affiliated people! i scrapped a decent 240 and i can safely say that my level, whose cut off point was 200, did VERY well in the o levels. WHY raise the damn thing? otherwise all these nerds/cheenapoks will come flooding in mg and dilute our culture!

and apparently, the new principal wants to change the uniform too! you can't do that! it was voted the 2nd nicest uniform in singapore in 2007 AND its been unchanged since 1922[i kid you not.] HOW can you get rid of such an essential part of mgs history and such a pretty thing?!

too many changes for an old person like me...

i rant. i'm sorry

but yeah, in short so many changes. and its only been 6 months since i really left gb and mg.

:(