make a guess

its not what you say that matters, its what you don't say that leaves me crying.
3 words, 8 syllables, say it and i'm yours

both are true

so what's the situation?

in the midst of a short hiatus...

YAY.
my mbs are back.
:)

exams going on now. so i will pray hard and study not-so-hard
heheh.

will update soon

thoughts

on one level: so much for a happy ending.
on another level: its not what you say. its what you don't say that really hurts

its odd isn't it? this thing we call life.
its a game, its some form of torture
its almost as though
someone want to see us suffer
and although there's always a silver lining,
sometimes it goes into hiding.
and when all seems somewhat normal at last,
trouble happens again, all too fast.

drama performances

oh my gosh.

today was good.
i saw lin yeh turn totally bimbo and gay, wen being old, kye ling turn into a smart professor and bill being a horny nerd who got slapped 4 times in the span of 8 mins. HAHA.

yup yup. drama yet again. performances were yesterday, today and tomorrow.

mine's tomorrow. and i'm slightly dreading it.
may i not be nervous.

to the albertians

memories. i'd better stock up on them now
'cause they will be all i have, soon
i'll preserve of the images of you and take it with me

every moment. with all of you. it will be treasured.

i'll miss laughing, scolding, making crap up, eating, talking, walking, debating, or even sitting in silence with you lot.

money may make the world go round but every single crazy last one of you all make the ride enjoyable.

yet another song

Sorting out my music library when i came across this song. Cherm discovered it in her itunes library and we all agreed it was heart-melting, uber sweet.

anyway, its called beautiful, by jim brickman. its a disney song! the short clip is here. if you want the full version, go and download it illegally yourself buy it.

From the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes
there was something about you
I knew I knew
that you were once in a life time
a treasure near impossible to find
and I know how lucky I am to have you

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Holding you in my arms
no one else has fit so perfectly
I could dance forever with you, with you
and at the stroke of midnight
please forgive me if I can't let go
cause I never dreamed I'd find a Cinderella of my own

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

from the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes...

amanda's post

windows media player is currently belting out celine dion's my heart will go on.
i secretly like that cheesy song do not know why i have the titanic soundtrack.
anyway, made me reflect, yet again.

the year's coming to an end.

2008 has been one of the best years of my life.
i think i've grown a lot more.

i found amanda's resurected blog and this was her post which expressed really everything i felt(minus the planetshakers bit)

one of the better posts i have read:

i think the earth is revolving way too fast
everything's like *whack* *whack *whack*
and it's term 4 already

ohmygosh
i dont know what i should be feeling

im quite excited
because i am going home in about a month
and it will be sunny singapore for 2 whole months
im happy because i can be with my family
plus visit the familiar places again
& of course eat proper food that i miss so much!
im also glad that i can finally see my friends again
but im kinda afraid of that fact too
i wonder if everything was like before i left
i wonder if they'll still be the same
i hope nothing much had changed
i hope i will not feel too awkward
im kinda scared, you know :(

but on the other hand,
im really really really upset
i dont want to leave Australia
i dont want to leave this crazy place i came to know
and lived for for 10 whole months
it really amazes me
how i gained so much within this short period of time
and how there were so many opportunities to grow and know more abt myself
how in like the next moment
i can be given the opportunity to perform infront of 10 000 ppl
best of all, beside PCK and crew
i think it was the best 10 months of my life ever
i never imagined coming to this alien place by myself
doing my own laundry, getting the groceries, managing my money
besides that, i got to experience so much too
true joy, love, hurt, sadness, anger..

i dont want all these to end

i know im coming back nxt yr and all
but it's gonna be different
its just not trinity college, albert house and planetshakers anymore
its just not the same
i cant believe 2008 passed just like that
it feels like a great big dream

i really want to thank australia

thank you for blessing me with such great ppl in the hostel
especially the fruits! you know who you are :D
thank you for all the crazy fun times tgt
thank you for being yourselves
thank you for always being there
thank you for the late night outs
& i know i cannot thank you enough
to show my gratitude and love! really
I LOVE YOU! every stupid single one of you
i will never ever forget
promise me all 60 of us will meet up again ok :)

thank you for school
im sorry but i just have to say it rocks so much more than jc
because we have subjects like drama, lit and hoi
(i actually enjoy hamlet and nationalism ok! ok ignore me)
and they are nothing like GP (haha!) im sorry :P

this week's our last wk of school
and today we had our last drama class
and we were all being so emo. it made danny sad too
im gonna miss you danny
and every single one of you teachers
& school mates too! you guys are lovely ppl

thank you trinity
for giving me so many opportunities to express myself
thank you for giving me the opportunity to sing in front of everybody on stage twice
it was really a great milestone for me & i couldnt have wished for more
because in spore everyone seems to be saying the glass was breaking (HAH)
i really enjoyed them all

thank you planet shakers!
thank you for GREAT pastors (ie ps russell, sam and matt!)
& of course, my darling urbs
you guys were always smiley and happy xD
our cell grp's like the bomb!
i hope you guys forgive me for not always turning up k
so sorry
but you know, you all are always in my heart
and i know that i am always in your prayers
although nxt yr i may not go back there
I WILL MISS YOU ALL OK!
you, you, you & you

im actually crying thru the post
hey all these are sincerely from the deepest downest part of my heart ok!
:)

i want to start all over again
at the beginning
where it was like oh hi! i am amanda from singapore
oh wow, you are from _____
so what's your name?
oh that's a nice name!
(well maybe not the last part but, yah u get me right ;D)

but i know
its just not possible
i guess i just got to trust
trust in whatever the Lord has in store for me nxt yr
and continue believing that He will continue to bless me
after seeing how 2008 filled the first big phase of my life
im confident about how the nxt few yrs wil pass
& continue to impact me, shape me & amaze me
bit by bit.. one step at a time.

free stuff

of cheap thrills and freebies

today is 7/11,

which means its 7 eleven day!
and they were giving out free slurpees! :)

i'm currently wearing my free sg day shirt which says majulah singapura
i think its quite cool.

last thursday, melbourne uni engineering faculty was having an exhibition and they were giving out free krispy kremes.

hugs and kisses are free too!

and so is oxygen and laughter.

i have thus come to the conclusion that the best things in life are free. :)

dilemma

i got accepted in maquarie for hospitality. in sydney.
while i really want to do hospitality,
i'm in a
dilemma: \də-ˈle-mə also dī-\ noun
a problem offering at least two solutions or possiblities of which none are practically acceptable
1. a usually undesirable or unpleasant choice
2. a situation involving such a choice
3. a problem involving a difficult choice

i'm so tired. of leaving everything behind.
first was to come to melbourne.
left behind friends that i had known for 10 years.
left behind routines that i had
left behind family
left my comfort zone

now its to leave melbourne
leaving behind albertians
leaving behind trinity peeps
leaving behind you.

prom II

i did it.
there's no turning back now.
its gone forever.
all it took was one step.
so easy.
i lost my virginity.
my club one, that is.

anyway, felt like being lame.. so the after party was at a club called seven and it was my first time going clubbing. kendrick got a table cause he ordered 2 bottles of liquor. it was quite fun, dancing and losing yourself in the loud loud music. (it reminded me why i love dance. and i miss ballet. cause you forget everything. all you can hear is the music and you don't have to think. your body takes over. for once, the mind is at rest.)
it was safe, going with all the albertians and it was fun.

oh yeah, if you're wondering how i managed to get in since i'm only 17, i borrowed leanne's ID. i don't think i look like her but jia yang insisted that i did with my makeup on. so i was like so you're saying that leanne's prettier than me. then jia yang saved himself by pointing out that leanne usually wears makeup so he was referring to when both of us had make up on. haha thanks for trying to make me feel better!
they ended up not checking ID since we were in a big group.

i think it was a nice experience but i don't think i'll be addicted to clubbing or anything.

please don't stop the music

prom I

Halloween was well spent for me, cause i had my PROM.

31st October was eventful. i went for lectures in the morning as usual with the econs lecturer giving us notes on what would come out for the exam. At 3, with all the exam stuff promptly forgotten, me, amanda, krystle, tiffy, liwen and amanda left for the basement of Myers[equivalent of taka]. Me and krystle discovered that the bloom [click for link] cosmetic counter at Myers was doing free make up for some promotion thing. Being chinese, we happily took advantage of it and booked it for us and the rest. joyce joined us later. I LOVE MY MAKEUP ARTIST. she only did mine since she went home after she did me but i liked her cause she was really good and friendly. Me, being a noob at this sort of a thing, had no clue, just told her i wanted light make up and that my dress was grey and she immediately started whipping out stuff and asked me to choose between 2 shades of grey for eyeshadow. As she was doing my face i asked her about stuff in general. She wants to be a makeup artist for models and she told me she prefered doing asian faces. i never heard that before. like choosing asian over caucasian. anyway, her name's steph and i'm going to send her a thank you card. as you can tell, i really liked her work:

tiffy and me

we went back to albert house to do hair. i was intending to do a french plait at the side of my head but it became loose so last minute-ly, sam and esther came to the rescue and did my hair simply but nicely. corridor mate to the rescue! thank you so much sam. and thanks for lending me your earrings, esther. and so after all the mayhem and running around like a headless chicken, the cinderellas descended the stairs into the waiting room where their prince charmings were waiting.[read: pretty girls clopped down the crappy albert house stairs in precariously high heeled shoes invented by men who decided that destroying a women's foot would be a good idea because it made her butt look small where the guys in suits who-were-looking-better-than-usual-but-still-not-prince-quality were grumbling about how long the girls were taking at the dining area. The girls camwhored with glam dresses with a not-so-glam background of the albert house dining hall. eg.

see? 4 VERY pretty girls with 4 VERY pretty dresses and hair with flourescent lights behind. SIGH

anyway, the maxicabs arrived and we piled in and off we went. some random guy waved to us at the traffic light. i think he was quite amazed.

Grand Hyatt: Trinity College Foundational Studies Annual Ball 2008
Live from the red carpet!

that was our theme. kinda boring but oh well. the red carpet was fun to camwhore on.

3 course meal. prawns, chicken and chocolate tart. mixed opinions. i've heard it being described as 'f**king waste of money' to 'excellent' and 'worth it'. personally, i find it ok cause taking into consideration that $85 had to cover venue, deco and food, the food was not bad.

more photo taking and shameless camwhoring ensued. Bee bee won Miss trinity(have to be good in studies, pretty, charismatic, nice and talented) yay! and kendrick and melody got couple of the night. their prize was a giant teddy! it was this giant:

yes yes, i look demented. but that's because that hand there was trying to steal the teddy. i think the hand belongs to jian fei.

me with beebee, aka miss trinity.


couple of the night! why i'm in the middle calefare-ing, i do not know... so cute right the both of them? baby pink and baby blue.

anyway, we took a hell load of photos and after that, raced home in a cab to go for the after party. which should be saved for another blogpost