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i'm nearly 18!!! whoohoo. just a few more hours. :)

anyway, i just read this:

basically, a little girl has been diagnosed with cancer and she needs to go to new york for treatment. but its really expensive so she needs all the help she can get.

as most of you know, the battle against cancer is something quite close to my heart so please donate.. :) details can be found here. every single donation counts and i can tell you, every person who had helped my family through the difficult times, i appreciate them, truly.

so... please help

last few days of irresponsibleness

i'm still 17...
my last few days of being underage and being the youngest
i'm looking forward to growing up :)

met up with sean, watched bruno[SO NOT WORTH WATCHING]

saw kristy.
the first thing she said was OMG YOU'RE STILL THE SAME SIZE!
cue the -.- face.
anyway, we spent the day talking about the randomest things.

it was nice.

living

i feel like i'm living in the past
like all i have is memories.
and nothing else

since when did it get so hard to live?

3 sisters

the 3 Ms:

me, maddy and marianne

i wonder how tall maddy will get.
i hope marianne doesn't get taller than me

i don't think anyone can guess that i'm the oldest then.

my grace is sufficient

into your hands, i commit again
with all i am, for you Lord
you hold my world in the palm of your hand

i really really thank god for looking after me this term

at the start of this term i resolved to go to church regularly. and i went for 2 weeks then i had stuff and school cropping up. but i still talked to Him regularly and basically, i decided i would commit myself into his hands again.

and He timed everything so nicely. like i decided i would look for a job and he gave me a nice one that fit into my timetable and didn't cut into my weekends [my friend couldn't find a job]. and after i got settled into my job, the derks came to sydney, [quite fun, hanging around them made me feel so much better] and then now, joanna's coming for the hillsong conference.

there's a lot of stuff that He managed to fit in for me nicely also but that's a very very long detailed story.

and i'm getting used to this place. somehow making it all work.

fanfics

Draco Malfoy speaking to Jason, a fanfic character who's interested in Ginny:

"Not at all," Draco enthused, in a jaunty voice. He patted Jason lightly on the shoulder, as he nudged him towards the fireplace. "Just checking to see if you understood what Harry Potter is capable of, is all. Horribly boring individual. Terrible conversationalist. S’got the personality of a door stop, really. But when it comes to aggressive magic, Jason," Draco paused, "there isn't another human on the planet to match him."

ahaha. i love fanfiction.net

life

when i went back to sg and entered my bedroom, i rembered what i had taped to my desk. written on the maskin tape was:

'laugh a lot , love all, live to the fullest, dream big, work hard, play harder'

i wrote that before going off to trinity.
to remind myself that these things in life are the things worth living for.
that life is not just about studying.
there's so much more to do

at the end of my life. i want to be able to tell God

"i managed to laugh, work, love, play, dream and best of all, i lived the life you gave me to the fullest"

i want to have no regrets.
so perhaps
i should be unafraid
as i was before.